The Journal of Theo

My desire is to only eat food that is healthy and helps my body. I say that but what is evidenced in 26 years is that I do not want to eat healthily. I am guessing this is because I want my mother to feel validated in taking care of me. Or maybe it’s because I want to have something to complain to other people about so that people feel sorry for me so that I get attention. Perhaps I should try not complaining to anyone about my problems and see what emotions come out of me when I do that. So maybe I am lying to myself. I would like to say that I don't want to be addicted to food. But if I keep acting out my addiction, then the truth is I want to be addicted to food. But I can say the following. Somewhere inside of me, I do not want to engage in the fevered cycle of addiction that I have with food: eating while driving, scarfing down food without enjoying it, feeling fearful over what I can eat around friends, trying to please people around me by eating things they would like...

For three days from July 3, 2017 through July 5, I would like to tackle the following addictions: Pornography Wanton Masturbation Youtube Videos Overeating Eating Dairy, Eggs, and Meat Eating Junk Food According to Jesus, the best way to rid yourself of an addiction is to abstain from it but not in the sense of going “cold turkey” so that you force yourself to permanently abstain. The goal here is to abstain for a short period of your choosing and see what emotions arise while you prevent yourself from engaging in normal addictive behaviors. With this in mind, for the short period of 3 days, I would like to abstain from the aforementioned addictions in the following ways: I would like to view no pornography at home or elsewhere. I would like to refrain from masturbation. I would like abstain from watching any Youtube Video although I may upload videos. I would like to abstain from overeating but just eat a regular-sized plate as though I wa...