The Journal of Theo

I saw an amazing video from a recent talk Mary and Jesus gave in Gatwick, UK. There was a piece in it about raising children that was so powerful I decided I had to clip it and throw it on my channel. I wrote a little blurb in the description box of the video and I thought it was good so I am copying and pasting it here: The Truths contained in this video is some of the most powerful information I’ve ever heard from anyone. As a child raised to be a couch potato, there were no consequences for my lack of desire to take responsibility over myself. For some reason, when my single mother wanted to do my laundry or clean my dishes, I did not protest. One time, I remember trying to take responsibility by cutting the peel off the apple segments myself. I had never done it before and I was learning how to use the knife carefully so that I would not cut myself. Instead of fostering my desire to learn, my mother told me I was going too slow, and she took over. Even as I write this, I cry thinki...

I was singing a camp song I knew from my youth this morning, while waiting for a security door to open in the detention center where I work. The line from the song, "We will not despair!" hit me hard this morning. When I say morning, it was about 1:30 in the am.      Well, the fact was, just at that moment, I was despairing pretty hard. I don't know how often I've despaired in my life but it's probably a fair few times. I've never thought about what I was doing or how to properly describe it. It's not the sort of thing you want to admit to yourself or those around you. If you told someone you were despairing, they might ask you what's wrong. Then you have the horrid task of attempting to describe your worries to them. It never quite works and at a certain point, the listening party gets tired of hearing it. When that happens, they will chime in with a bunch of advice that may have never worked for them in the first place and they don't know that yo...

Education and Work Children will learn about God in First Grade, God's Laws in Second Grade, the human soul in Third Grade, and the universe in Fourth Grade. Hands-on education will be encouraged. People will be educated about the merits of work as well as the joy of taking responsibility for one's own life. Education will encourage a child's natural curiosity and personal passions. Truth Research will be conducted to understand God, God's Laws, the human soul, and the effect of God's Love on the human soul. Abusive religious practices will be outlawed. International Relations A significant amount of resources will go to ensure that those in other countries who are willing to learn are educated about God, God's Laws, the human soul, and the universe. Every human being requires the basic essentials of water, food, clothes, and shelter to live. A national priority will be to ensure that all children on earth aged 5 and under are given the basic essentials. Border ...

I grew up in one of those fundamentalist churches that believes they are changing the world. They held the keys to salvation if you only understood their "truth." For whatever reason, I came to believe that I, myself, was someone who had a mission to dispense my church's truth and save the nation and world. But after I found out about the corruption in the organization, learned about the sins of the founder of the church, and saw firsthand some of the hypocrisies, I lost my faith. After years of searching, I came across the Divine Truth teachings and encountered ideas and principles I couldn't dispute. I learned I still had a "messiah complex." And while it may be loving to want to help people, thinking that you can save them by getting them to follow you for your own power's sake cannot be loving. Truth itself is God's viewpoint on any given matter and it is not up to the individual to amend it. So what do I do with the positive side of my desire to...

Two days ago, I was at the gas station filling up my little car. After the gas nozzle clicked, the screen read "$35." How could it cost so much? The big sign above me said it was $4.50 a gallon. I don't think I've ever seen it that high. I remember around the time of the last Iraq war when the prices were going up. People kept asking whether it would go past $4. To my recollection, it got close but never did. Well, now it finally has. Gas prices going up will mean the prices of all other goods will go up because it costs to deliver those goods and the companies don't want to take the loss. Here again is one of those occasions where bad economic news means some people at the top will do extra well as they anticipate each next hardship and adjust accordingly while people at the bottom will see more difficulty. It's not looking good. But how bad is it really? Most people in America still have cars although they're a bit more beat up. Everyone still has shoes....

       I had an interesting emotional experience today that I want to share. It had to do with emotions I have to do with women.                I have been praying for help with my feelings about women. My sex life, as far as interacting with women in person, is non-existent although I do project at women, fantasize about women, and look at nude women online frequently. I know that it’s a problem and I have felt compelled to address it at various times with little success.                The other day I had an experience where I felt compelled to masturbate and decided to not engage that. Instead of engaging, I felt this feeling of fear come up that I was surprised at and initially ignored. After trying to distract myself away from it, I noticed that it lingered with me with an intensity. So, I finally surrendered to the sense of it. Soon after that, tears began flowing. It wa...