The Journal of Theo

In my personal spiritual life, I have come to certain conclusions about what must be true. When I first watched videos from Jesus, there were several things he had to have said before I could believe he was who he said he was. 1. There is a God, He/She has male and female characteristics, and is a being with personality and not just an unconscious energy source. Many New Agers believe that God is a substance that does not emote or have independent thought. They often refer to God as the Source. I could not believe that as it did not coincide with my experiences with God or my personal beliefs. If Jesus did not also say this, I would not keep following his teachings. 2. Jesus is the son of God in the same way you and I and everyone else are sons and daughters of God. I had the special gift to be raised in a faith that taught that Jesus was a prophet of God and not a part of God or God Himself. The Muslims believe this but sadly, most Christians do not. There is no trinity of God ...

According to The Sage of Quay, going off the book The Memoirs of Billy Shears, there are 66 levels or degrees in the Pyramid of Power. The first 33 degrees are the Scottish Rite of Free Masonry. Above them are 13 degrees of the Illuminati. Then there are 20 degrees of people or beings that no one will know about except for the people in those degrees.

It can't be an easy thing to grow up in a world where many people do not accept your sexuality. I used to be among those who didn't tolerate it. Unfortunately, the religious people who ought to be the most loving and knowledgeable are often the most ignorant. I have only some idea of what it must feel like to be neglected, gaslighted, and preached to. If you feel indignant when someone preaches to you or tries to change you, just know that the person talking to you is ignorant on this subject. The truth is that God made homosexuals. You are God's child. You don't have to the option to refuse speaking to someone. You may be able to educate them but some people don't want to be educated. I recommend leaving them alone. I want to tell you my thoughts on the Gay Pride movement and Gay Pride parades. I know it is common for people, because of past trauma, to overcompensate in the opposite direction of their pain, in the hopes of crushing it and making it disappear. I...

When I was just a boy, my father and I were shopping in a convenience store on the corner of the major intersection in my small town. I was browsing the aisles when my eye caught a toy car in a matchbox container. Just then, a thought came into my mind. What was to stop me from taking it and putting it in my pocket? I felt a nudge. I couldn’t walk away. What a question that was. Of course, that was stealing and everyone said that was bad. But I knew some people did it. To do or not to do. That was the question. It didn’t strike me in that moment what the moral decision would have been. I only wondered if I could get away with it. The next few minutes were a daze. I felt thrilled. But it was a gnawing thrill. I had to do it. I wasn’t fast about it. Any sudden movement might alert someone. I took it in my hand and spied to see if anyone was looking at me. Another customer had just left. It was just the cashier, the father, and little old me. I put the toy in my poc...

I’ma tell ye what some might call a sad story. Sad for me anyhow. I’ma tell ye the few words what were written out te me and which I read - words what rubbed me so as to make my flesh raw - words that cut right down to the very bone marrow. I tell ye what those words imparted te me - I tell ye just what they did. They rubbed me raw and they cut me deep. The man in question wrote te me just before the sun comes up around my region of the world. He says te me that I lost the plot and broke touch with reality and sorry bud and so on. It matters not just exactly what he said. It was the meanin’ behin’. A meanin’ I could see clear as a lamp. They meant that I was lost, delirious, and in quick need of being sequestered. I tell ye just exactly what it did to me to read those words. It rubbed me raw, and it cut me deep - right down te the bone deep. And what’s more, the cowardly man I might have called my friend, deliberately severed contact. He made me out to be some contagious leper, to be i...

A friend was visiting town and we went to the main library in Chicago. As we were coming close, I mentioned the large grotesques that were placed along the top of the building. I told my friend what someone had told me. "Most people think of these structures as gargoyles but to be a gargoyle, it has to spout water. What most people think are gargoyles are actually really grotesques." We entered the building and explored the beautiful architecture within. At what point, we got to talking about some political thing that I can't recall. To describe the actions that were being taken, he used an interesting word. "That's kind of grotesque." Of all the words he could have used, I found it interesting that he chose that one. It wasn't the most relevant word choice - not even that close really. To me, it was clear what he had done. He had used a word that was primed in his short-term memory. He pulled it out. It's not wrong that he did that. He u...

Normally I don’t allow comments or the option to see likes and dislikes on my videos. I made this choice for several reasons: 1. I wanted to be free of considering the response to my videos. 2. I wanted to follow the template that Jesus and Mary made for their videos. 3. I wanted to make my videos out of a desire to share with people, not out of a desire to please people or get recognition. 4. If I allowed comments, some people would use the opportunity to engage with me in co-dependant addictions - I would get more viewers but the quality would go down. 5. I didn’t want people to stop watching my videos due to the like to dislike ratio - I wanted them to review the content itself. But for most of these reasons, there is an alternative positive aspect to leaving comments and the option to see likes and dislikes. If you see likes or dislikes, you may be able to gauge the response and see if it’s worth your time. The likes to dislikes ratio can sometimes accurately reflect the qualit...